In the previous part ( Slip Of Tongue part-1), Aarush begins writing a letter to the fellow homo sapiens. He describes about his life and how his inner self sometimes come to play, at wrong place and wrong time. He hates his boss and has a crush on his fellow colleague, but can't do anything about it due to his lack of expression. He thinks a thing and says other, as a result he is confined in his complex web of emotions and feelings. He goes to Marine drive to spend some time with nature and vent his frustration and unknowingly makes a wish. ' I wish I can change my life and tell everyone what I feel without any hesitation' . As he drives his car, he can see a falling star, but completely ignores it and get lost in his car's loud music.
The
delegates were very much impressed and told my boss that it was a revolutionary
idea. So they decided that they will review the software at that moment only ,
so that they can give the final decision. My boss didn't knew about the bugs
and so he gave the green signal. I was worried as I had not fix the bug issues.
My boss took the laptop and started showing
them the software. After few minutes the bug issues started. His face
became pale as he had no idea what to do. The delegates asked him what was wrong
and so he told some bugs were there which needed to be fix. So one of the
delegate who was genius at coding came to see which type of error was there and
told that it was just some minor bugs and wouldn't take much of their time. He
told my boss to start fixing it. I didn't understood why they did what they did
because, though those bugs were minor bugs which can be fixed in an hour or so, but some bugs can take sometimes weeks time to be fixed. But suddenly a thought
came in my mind, they are assessing my boss' capability as to whether he had
made the software or not, because last year company faced some copyright issue
on one of the software which was made by some foreigner and one of our
company's employee stole its contents. So they are just checking on my boss.
' Told you so ' , as I lay in my bed at my
house ,my inner self taking the credit for all the things happened today. 'Yaa I should have listened to you' I
replied back. I got a new and a better job and my crush is my girlfriend, all
by just letting my heart out. I should have listened it beforehand only. I
thanked god for making my wish true and forcibly making me speak all my
emotions and thoughts. Had he not done that, I would be reporting to that
useless boss and might never had Aakruti in my life. Damn it feels so good to
tell the things your heart says . It makes you lively and you don't need to
burden your brain with useless thoughts. Just speak what you feel like speaking and listen to your heart. I got this
lesson and so I thought to share it with my best friend Shweta Mittal from my school days because
she is like me only. 'I told her all this
and start hearing your heart out. Don't neglect your feelings or emotions.
Listen to what your heart says and decide what you should do. Don't think about
the people who doesn't matter to you. Just be yourself, love yourself and keep
your favourite people closer. Everything will be there tomorrow, if know whom to take along with you. Give time
to everyone who matter to you, no one knows when they will not be there.'
She was impressed with my sudden found understanding and suggested me to share
this with the world and so here I am writing this letter to my fellow homo
sapiens.
Two days later..
The
office was pretty busy in making arrangements as the delegates from the head
office were coming. I was not in any state of tension or worry because I knew I
had to repeat the exact same thing. I just cross checked the presentation and
went through the software to be shown. I was facing some bug issues with my
software which needed to be taken care of. I knew what was to be done, so
decided to do it after the meeting as I thought it was already time for the
meeting and the delegates won't pry over to look at the entire software and its
details. My boss came to me and asked," Aarush, all set ? Ready for the presentation? Its a
big day today. Give your best."
I
annoyingly spoke,"
Yaa, whatever" and then as he gave me the look, I cursed my inner self for this
blunder and told my boss that it was just a slip of tongue. I couldn't possibly
understand how it came out ?. But the real drama was yet to began. The meeting
began as all settled in the meeting room. Aakruti gave me a thumbs up for the
presentation and I started. With my final slide of 'Thank you', the
presentation was completed and I can hear the claps of the team. For a second I
felt so proud of myself that my idea was successful and then anger crawled in
as I knew my boss would take all the appreciation and may even get promoted.
I
was lost in my thoughts when my boss called me. I saw him, he was sweating
badly. He told that he has explained me everything , so I can fix the bugs. I
spoke bluntly," Sir,
you have just explained me the idea and presentation, but the software is made
by you. You only can fix the bugs now as you know every code. For me to do it,
I have to first go through the entire software." ' Oh! Shit what did I
spoke?' I
thought. ' Why am I not
able to control my thoughts?. Is it something related to my wish which I asked
for two days before?' I was confused. My boss gave me a murderous look and
started doing something in the laptop. One hour passed and he was nowhere near
to fixing any bugs. The coding genius told that he shouldn't have taken so much
time. My boss asked for some more time. I didn't knew what got into me and I
asked," Can I
try?".
I checked again 'Where
did that even came from' I thought. 'Something
is really wrong with me. Why am I speaking what my inner self is thinking . It's definitely because of that
falling star wish. God what have you put me into.' The genius looked at me
and asked," Are
you sure?, because your boss made it and he is facing some issues. Will you be
able to do it?". I nodded my head. He told my boss that he already had taken
more time than needed and he should give a chance to me. My boss gave me the
laptop and I started my work fast, thinking that I need to do it. Within half
an hour I fixed all the minor bugs and showed it to them.
All
of them were impressed, specially the coder genius. He told me that I am very
much good. The maker of software didn't fix the bugs and I was able to do it in
such a less time and so it was quite a nice thing. He was looking at me as if
he got the hint of what might have happened and he gave me a 'I know it all look'. I just returned a smile
and said," Thank
you."
My boss jumped in the conversation and asked if we have the approval from them.
The delegates started discussing and the genius coder started like this." We are very much
impressed with the idea and I think we should go ahead. Aarush, you seem to be
a talented guy and so you deserve something big. You are coming with us to work
at HO and you will work on this software there. Do some fixes and make it run.
Your appointment letter will soon be given to you." He looked at my boss and
told," You
have quite a hell of a team and do come with many more ideas like this." I was so much happy that I
might have danced with joy infront of them. I realized how easy it was and how
much complicated I use to make it.
As
soon as the meeting ended and the delegates left, Aakruti came to me and
congratulated me. She told me that I will become a big man now and will not
remember her. I spoke instantly," No chance of it, You are running in my mind all day
and I can't just take my eyes off you. So how can I even forget you?" 'What have I spoken, I will get a slap now' I thought. Rather she
didn't do anything and started smiling. I don't know from where did all the
courage came and I started blabbering all my emotions out. I was not able to
control myself. I started,"
I know you think of me as just a colleague, but you are a lot more than a
colleague to me. My time in this office passes through happily just because I see you . My mornings
are usually not good, until you say me good morning and I see that beautiful
smiling face of yours. My boss is such a hitler, but the only good thing I look
forward to, to come here daily is you. You are such a darling who admires me a lot and always show faith in me. I became so nervous speaking to you,
because I don't want to say anything wrong and lose you. You are reason of
every happiness in my life. I know I might have not spoken any of this anytime
soon, but because I am not able to control my inner self and I will be leaving
in few days, so to clear everything up. There are so many ways to be happy in
life, but my happiness begins and ends with you. I am not asking you to marry
me, but Miss Aakruti Mehra, Will you give me some of your precious time to me
and decide where you want me in your life. I would be more than obliged to be
anyone just to be in your life. You are
the bestest person I have ever met and I never ever want to lose you."' God please help, this time she will surely slap me, but it do feels
good to let it all out. I can handle a slap now for this satisfaction' I thought.
After
speaking all this I immediately turned myself against her as I thought, I can't
face her. She slightly spoke ,"Aarush". I turned and saw
tears in her eyes and hoped that it should be the tears of joy . She continued," I have never
heard such things for me from anyone and I was dying to be with you. You never
even asked me for coffee or dinner, so I thought you don't like me. Even I also
like you very much. As you spoke the things about me, it was so overwhelming
for me and I am the happiest person on earth today. So Mr Aarush Mehta, I am
giving you my precious time, but make better use of it and in return I want your
time too."
With this we both started laughing and we hugged each other.
Use
your heart where it is required and brain where it is required. One's work can't
be done by other. Stop living the complicated life of what world want you to
be. You are an individual and you should live like you want. Do what you like,
say what you want to say. Stop filtering your thoughts and emotions according
to the world.Be honest and faithful to your feelings, emotions and your thoughts. They are yours, so better accept it rather than faking it with anything else. Whenever we by mistake let our real emotions and feeling out, we
cunningly tell it as Slip of Tongue in order to prevent embarrassment or anger
or whatever it might be. Its not that, they are your emotions which want to
come out and you are not letting it come out. In the end you will regret not doing a thing
which should be done or not saying something which should be said.
"
You only Live Once. So make the Most of It!!"
-
Unknown
That's
it from me. Think about it and try it. I am sure you will be satisfied with the
change it will bring.
Yours
Lovingly
Aarush
Mehta.
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